Posted in Life

Let’s find me a hobby….step 1 of new beginnings

I have decided that I won’t get the family I have longed for since my teens without making a big change. My change will begin with finding a hobby, socialise and interact with others because my feeling about myself, my situation and my body are overtaking my mind, I am not in a great financial situation but I need to set some money aside and do something for me. Which benefits the family in the long run.
I have chosen Yoga.

My decision comes from always being interested in yoga. I have been suffering with back pain due to an incident about 6-8 weeks ago and want to stretch and strengthen my core muscles. I need to lose weight and gain confidence and find a way to deal with my stress and recent work related stress and short temper.

Thanks to PCOS I have not had a period since February 23rd 2015. Becoming less stressed, upset and concentrating on something meaningful.

  1. Research Yoga
  2.  Finding a group and contacting them (just literally done)
  3. Arrange to do some yoga
  4. Buy an outfit – don’t think any of mine are suitable. My wardrobe is full of clothes too small, too big, work related or full of holes.
  5. Decide whether I enjoy yoga
  6. Make this a full time change, continue to take part.

A healthy mind makes a healthy body.

I am at work tomorrow for ages!! (Literally at least 12 hours) so will be starting with the library Saturday Morning.

And I will start there. Hopefully there’s a class that fits in with my job starting next week.

Stacie-Mai xx

Posted in Life

Set me up some goals. Life needs to change….now


I need to change

I hate what I have become and hate the way I look, I need a life and image overhaul. So time to make a plan, or several!!

The several step plan….

  1. Find a Hobby
  2. Sort out job issues
  3. Take control of my lifestyle.
  4. Organisation!!
  5. Weight Control
  6. Nail Biting!!
  7. Baby Making – IVF JOURNEY
  8. Be Happy and find peace.


Stacie-Mai xx

Posted in Health, PCOS and Fertility


Hello there! Been a while. Here is something else to moan about….of course this is what we humans do best.

Anyone out there with sleep troubles? I am sick of them. It is one thing after another at present….

Last night went to sleep at 5:30AM – it was light outside!!

The night before 4:45AM and the days, oh wait week before I Lost count of the early morning bedtimes.

I think I am starting to annoy my wife. I am bad tempered, fatigued, clumsy, putting the lbs back on and blimey am I grumpy.

Negative feelings and damn right horrible thoughts are going through my mind with regards to

  • Weight
  • Babies and not being able to have them due to my weight
  • Injuries and illness
  • Financial situation
  • Family

So many issues running through my mind and where to start?

Maybe it is a combination of stress that has finally built up. Maybe it is my bodies way of telling me to take a break, or perhaps an issue that is ongoing where my body is trying to tell me something??

Who knows?

All I know is that I wish I could finally have a normal sleep pattern after years of positive and negative phases of sleep.


Stacie-Mai xx