Hello to another Mental Health Monday;
Today I want to discuss one of my ‘pet peeves’ about mental health.
- “If you need anything I’m here”
- “Hope you are ok”
- “My door is always open”
- “I/We care and are here for you”
- “Love you”
I am sorry but personally I have been told this and seen it so much. It is utter BS!! very few people care. I spent 7 months – YES 7 MONTHS at home off sick with my mental health and I had 2 visitors!! 2 – now you say this is better than none but only one of those visitors actually asked how I was.
Please let me know I am not alone with these frustrating phrases and how I feel about them? if you do not suffer with mental or physical health difficulties, or you do but you feel it doesn’t impact you much please PLEASE PLEASE be thoughtful when you share these ‘raising awareness’ or ‘my door is always open’ posts – because realistically is that the case. I have tried to force people to visit me just for the sake of seeing them and having someone to speak to but 99.9% of the time there is an excuse, someone else or something else is more important or you just do not care.
Please tell me I am not the only frustrated one??
Well there are several ways to word this question but the basic question that is really one of the worst you can ask me is;
“What has caused your anxiety/depression?”
At this point my head is saying
While there are several incidents, issues, triggers and events that have led to my current situation, the simple answer is ‘I DO NOT KNOW!!’
Quite frankly if I understood it myself I would have a better handle on my situation.
I am studying Mental Health and aim to have a career in the field, but even with my years of studying, assignments and exams – you can know about all the theorists, professors and professionals along with all the knowledge, practices and policies, but that does not mean you know everything. I still do not understand me.
It really distresses me and upsets me when people start to question me, I get embarrassed because I like having knowledge and when I cannot explain or justify myself it is embarrassing. Especially if there is a person looking at you or smirking, it is intimidating!!
I am slowly losing the little level of trust I had in people. The way things are said, words being twisted and me being at fault.
I am struggling, not stupid!!
Maybe this journey is something I need to go through, I can already see it leading me towards certain goals. Maybe everything does happen for a reason. Only time will tell.